Annika Noelle, who plays Hope Logan on The Bold And The Beautiful, shared her heartbreaking loss with Glamour Magazine. The actress received her first Emmy nomination for losing a baby on the CBS soap. Sadly, life would imitate art. Ms. Noelle shared the intimate details of not one but two pregnancy losses.
'Searching for Any Sign of Movement or Flicker of Life'
Annika describes the moment an ultrasound revealed that she had lost her child. While fighting tears and feeling vulnerable, the technician delivered the news. "I'm sorry there doesn't seem to be a heartbeat. And just like that, I had lost my second child in a matter of months," the Bold and the Beautiful actress recalled.
She had wrapped up a months-long story arc of baby loss on B&B. At that time, she had never had a pregnancy. Wanting to do the story justice, she threw herself into the storyline by researching pregnancy loss and grief. After months of playing grief, "it left a psychological mark that was difficult to recover from, if only I knew what cruel irony kay ahead", stated Annika Noelle.
Bold and the Beautiful Star's Dreams of Having a Baby Turned Into a Nightmare
The Bold and the Beautiful star revealed her road to getting pregnant was not an easy one. When Annika Noelle learned of her pregnancy, she and her fiance were "overjoyed and terrified."
For her first child, she read numerous baby books and searched online for baby information. All the while, she juggled appointments, ultrasounds, bloodwork, and her busy film schedule on B&B.
The expectant mom received troubling progesterone results and eventually lost a baby girl at ten weeks. She then described a horrific in-office D&C (dilation and curettage) which was extremely painful and traumatizing.
After some time, Annika Noelle became pregnant again. Sadly, she lost a baby boy at eight weeks. The Bold and the Beautiful actress continued to film, and no one knew what she had gone through.
Looking back, she wishes she had shared her experience. Annika stated, "I would have given anything to have the understanding and support of the cast and the crew. I felt so alone."